bakeurfaceoff

•I’m the girl with an excuse for everything, all the while blaming myself. •I constantly have to remind myself that none of my friends are like me when it comes to the ways we support others; and that’s okay. •I hate having crushes because I feel like I have no control. •I need to start making notes for myself reminding me to eat. •I’ve been crying so much lately that my eyes are almost always tired. •I miss my friends from the east coast, this just adds to my stress. •I’m almost positive a lot of my stress is self induced. •Realizing people you care for, care greatly less for you than you do for them is really hard for me. •Crying uncontrollably being the only thing that makes you realize that you’re not happy is a very sad/pathetic thing. I thought I was happy. •I just want to find someone who will cuddle and it won’t get weird. •I’ve never been good at being happy, and I’m just realizing this. I am however really good at convincing myself that I am and smiling it off. •I go places where I can stare at the stars to remind myself how small I actually am and how small my problems actually are. Get over it. •oh yeah, I also read into EVERYTHING!

Totally just hid in a parking lot so I could cry by myself. Coolcoolcool!

Tell your friends you love them and give atleast one reason why; it’s good for their souls and everyone needs to hear that stuff every once and awhile!

Just got home from an awesome night filled with people I love. I’m stoked to wake up to do some laundry, free choir, eat delicious foods, then dance!! On the walk home from dropping Blakely off, Caiti Holle and I had a good conversation, I always leave talks with her wanting to work on something about myself and not in a bad way… it’s always positive, I’m glad I have a Caiti Holle in my life. I also shaved my legs for the first time in months and the feeling of my blanket against fresh skin is the best. I need to start posting more. I take pictures all the time and actually do stuff, it was just easier to tell you all what was going on when I had a computer and not just my phone.

I love my friends, even the ones I hate. I especially love this town.